29 8 / 2014
- this week i’ve been singing a new song to darby. it goes “everything you do is the cutest/everything you do is the cutest/even your bad habits are cute/because they’re yours/and you’re the cutest.” and then yesterday when we were debating going out or ordering in dinner, stephen was like “i think we should get you out of the house.”
- today my office closes at 2pm for the long weekend, and i could not be more delighted! i’m going to have a skype and cocktails date with my girl ka, and then take a nice long wander. i haven’t been on a walk with no purpose in awhile, and i’m looking forward to it.
- this weekend we’re sticking close to home, with plans to hang out outside and have cocktails with some friends and rearrange the living room and prep for our trip to ireland (in only one week!) and just generally enjoy some down time.
- speaking of ireland, we’ve planned a pretty grand itinerary for dublin, galway, and the dingle peninsula. if you have any recommendations for things to see (or especially places to eat - i don’t always trust guidebooks on this one), let me know!
- this fall i want to go back to school. not for anything serious (that’s a longer-range plan.) but i want to take classes in the things that interest me. i really miss learning. stephen and i talked for awhile about taking a french class, and i’ve been thinking about trying out calligraphy and floral design. also i really want to back into improv.
enjoy your weekend, friends!
27 8 / 2014
"At 19, I read a sentence that re-terraformed my head: “The level of matter in the universe has been constant since the Big Bang.”
In all the aeons we have lost nothing, we have gained nothing - not a speck, not a grain, not a breath. The universe is simply a sealed, twisting kaleidoscope that has reordered itself a trillion trillion trillion times over. Each baby, then, is a unique collision - a cocktail, a remix - of all that has come before: made from molecules of Napoleon and stardust and comets and whale tooth; colloidal mercury and Cleopatra’s breath: and with the same darkness that is between the stars between, and inside, our own atoms. When you know this, you suddenly see the crowded top deck of the bus, in the rain, as a miracle: this collection of people is by way of a starburst constellation. Families are bright, irregular-shaped nebulae. Finding a person you love is like galaxies colliding. We are all peculiar, unrepeatable, perambulating micro-universes - we have never been before and we will never be again. Oh God, the sheer exuberant, unlikely face of our existences. The honour of being alive. They will never be able to make you again. Don’t you dare waste a second of it thinking something better will happen when it ends. Don’t you dare."
22 8 / 2014
- i got very into watching slam poetry videos on youtube this week. (don’t ask me why. i just needed to feel some feelings, i guess.) some of my favorites were selfie by jenna robinson & william giles, OCD by neil hilborn (i think this one made the rounds last year and it’s still so good), and the period poem by dominique christina. high on the list of skills i wish i had: slam poetry.
- we’ve been getting blue apron boxes off and on over the past few months, and some have been better than others. the vegetarian meals last week were hit-and-miss (never making socca again), but the fresh gnocchi with maitake mushrooms was one of the most delicious things i’ve eaten in awhile. (stephen even asked if there were leftovers the next day.)
- because i’ve watched a lot of real housewives recently (and i have other thoughts to share on this…), i’ve been feeling especially grateful recently for all of the wonderful, smart, inspiring, hilarious, kind, drama-free girls in my life.
- this weekend some dear friends of ours are coming to visit with their baby boy, and i am so excited to see them and meet him. it is such a joy getting to watch your friends grow up, fall in love, get married, have babies. (and all the other good things - get their dream jobs, buy their first homes, take exciting vacations, live their best lives.) what a privilege.
22 8 / 2014
And the state of my life is just like:
the p stands for pizzafan.
20 8 / 2014
The mower stalled, twice; kneeling, I found
A hedgehog jammed up against the blades,
Killed. It had been in the long grass.
I had seen it before, and even fed it, once.
Now I had mauled its unobtrusive world
Unmendably. Burial was no help:
Next morning I got up and it did not.
The first day after a death, the new absence
Is always the same; we should be careful
Of each other, we should be kind"
While there is still time.
15 8 / 2014
- last night i spent a few hours reading about everything that has been happening at home and abroad, and then we watched “seeking a friend for the end of the world”, and i just have to say that while this movie is actually pretty good, i don’t recommend it if in fact you sometimes worry that we’re headed to our demise. (and not because of giant asteroids but because of disease and aggressive police and military actions and a growing poverty gap and sentient robots.)
- it’s not news to say that this week has made it harder and harder to feel like we live in a good world, though obviously my perspective on this comes from a place of privilege - my world has consistently been a good one. one thing i have struggled with is how to talk about something that feels like it is not my place to address and yet i know is everyone’s fight at the same time. i am afraid of saying the wrong thing, of not knowing enough. this piece, becoming a white ally to black people in the aftermath of the michael brown murder, has been a good place for me personally to begin to educate myself. (and there’s 10 things white people can do about ferguson besides tweet, which is also a good one, she wrote on her blog.)
- it is also a good reminder that it is important to me to always be working on how to be my best and most compassionate, educated, respectful, and patient self. the most immediate impact i can have on the world is making sure i treat those around me well.
- and on another note: this weekend i am looking forward to yoga+, hosting a friend (and eating tacos on a patio), watching liverpool’s first match this season, and sleeping.